It's not that i mind doing any of the things i mentioned in my et post. It's that every now and again, it's nice to have a little peace of mind. I know sarah and my relationship is going to be hard, that's obvious. and i'm perfectly willing to do all those things... because i love sarah. so much that I can't even explain it. none of those things matter when i'm with her...
but every now and then, it's nice to have a break. I know i'm just digging a bigger hole. But she spends time with her cousins without me, she spends time with tara without me. that's fine, i'm perfectly happy with that. So, every now and then, i spend time with some seniors without her. It's not that i don't want to keep spending time with her at all.
*sigh* *makes shovel tossing dirt over should movement to indicate i am only digging myself into a deeper hole*
i love you sarah, no matter what. none of the rest matters. that's all.