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things to never do in depth: self-reflect
So, Kristan is dating a guy-long distance. She just visited him and came back, and said "Wow, this really sucks and it's only been two weeks. How am I supposed to make it the next two months until I see him again?"

So, I thought to myself: Let's go look what I did!

Luckily for me, my whole mental history of that time of my life is online, so I can easily read it!

Holy crap, I was ... well. I was a kid.

Some things that stand out:

  • Huh. This is an entry almost entirely about riding roller coasters. Okay, I could see myself writing that. And no one would care today any more than they did then. Also, this entry contains the words "Killed me, quite literally." THAT ISN'T WHAT LITERALLY MEANS, OLD SELF.

  • I did a bunch of LiveJournal development related stuff. If other people acted on my open source projects the way that I acted on LJ, there is no question I would have considered them an annoying little shit, and ignored them. (This is, in fact, mostly what happened; in hindsight, I completely deserved it. READ A BOOK, OLD SELF.)

  • Jess and I still argue over the level of depth required in a one-page paper.

  • A lot of the reference material -- websites, journals, other people, etc. -- from that time is now gone. It's kind of sad to look back 12 years and realize that a lot of the references just... aren't things anymore.

  • Was entirely too full of myself on minor technology choices.

  • ... huh. I didn't remember that.

  • ... I made a list of places that I made out with my girlfriend on the weekend of prom.

You know, I'm a little bit less annoying, and there are a lot of things about me that have changed, but even 12 years later, there's a lot of me that's stayed the same.

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At least she's on the same continental landmass. I had two US girlfriends back in the late 1990s, the first in New York, the second in San Francisco, all while I was living in Cambridge (that's the original, not the one you're in). I did eventually solve the distance problem by importing one.

Edited at 2015-08-21 03:39 am (UTC)

Which roller coaster killed you?! I must know.

Ah, it wasn't actually the roller coasters, I Just also included a comment about midterms in the same post. "Monday and Tuesday I had 3 exams. Killed me, quite literally. But I think I did decent on them."

Your English has never been particularly good. You're the kind of guy who uses "unique" with a modifier.

However, you are unique with a modifier.

I mostly don't even look at my LJ from 12 years ago. Too embarrassing! A few years ago, I made everything from before about 2005 or 2006 (I don't recall right now) private.

I'm also still the same in many ways, but I also managed to learn form the pain in the ass I was. At the very least, I'm better at expressing myself.

Kudos to you for being brave enough to look back like that!

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