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Strange Memories
In second grade, a good friend of mine was running by me coming in from recess. For some reason, I stuck my foot out and tripped her. She scraped her face up on the asphalt pretty badly -- she had a scratched up face for weeks. I felt so horrible afterwards. I still have no idea why I did it. There was no explanation at the time, and no explanation now.

Why did I do it? Why would I want to hurt someone like that? I don't think I wanted to seem cool, or impress anyone. But I did it for a reason. I must have had some thought running through my head when I stuck my foot out.

I wonder if I was in the same situation today, if I would do it again. I hope I wouldn't -- especially not knowing that she would actually be hurt. I keep thinking that I didn't actually mean to hurt her, I just wanted to be playful and trip her for some reason, but that simply doesn't make sense.

It bothers me that I have memories of doing things, and no memory of why I did it. I seem to recall that even at the time I didn't know why I did it thoug, I just did. Thought that doesn't really make things any better.

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from a long-time reader of yours

We all have that type of memories. It doesnt matter we dont recall the reasons why we did it. What is important is that we truly regret it now, that shows how much into the perfection path you have travelled and how much you have evolved.

I also think that is the age when we test our ethical boundaries - what do we think about doing and what do we dare to actually do? Where is that line.....it may have been one of those moments.

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I have memories like that too

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