Why did I do it? Why would I want to hurt someone like that? I don't think I wanted to seem cool, or impress anyone. But I did it for a reason. I must have had some thought running through my head when I stuck my foot out.
I wonder if I was in the same situation today, if I would do it again. I hope I wouldn't -- especially not knowing that she would actually be hurt. I keep thinking that I didn't actually mean to hurt her, I just wanted to be playful and trip her for some reason, but that simply doesn't make sense.
It bothers me that I have memories of doing things, and no memory of why I did it. I seem to recall that even at the time I didn't know why I did it thoug, I just did. Thought that doesn't really make things any better.