Jessica says, "I know you weren't a fan of college, but back when you were 17, about to graduate HS . . . did you worry that you were going to the wrong college? I am as I didn't apply to another school that I really wanted as I thought I didn't stand a chance =\"
There are a number of schools I wish I had applied to, but I felt that where I was was going to be the best I could get. There's also the lack of financial aid available due to incomes and so on, so I couldn't really afford to go where I really would have wanted to (if I could have even gotten in, which was unlikely).
Keep in mind, when I started college, I was convinced it was going to be the best thing in the world for me. I was excited, and I was practically jumping up and down. Being there got me down a bit over time, but even now there are aspects of it I miss. College was never a bad experience for me, and I think it did wonderful things for me.
I wished that I could have gone elsewhere, but there's always a "grass is greener" look to life. Really, if it turns out the school you go to doesn't work out, you can change. It's not always easy, but it's possible to transfer, and it's possible to even come in as a new student after having only done a little bit of school.
At this point, I'd say that you should just stick to what you've got. Give it at least a semester - but don't give it much more than that. If you're not happy, get out. Go somewhere else, take a semester off and work, whatever. Because there's a million places out there, and even if you're limited by a lot of factors, there's still enough around that you can probably find somewhere that you like.
Nikkiana asks, "Where should I get a job?"
I think you should really just try something strange for the summer. Not retail, but something out of your typical league. Bartending. Event Management. Sales. Something that you wouldn't normally do, just to get out there. I know that I never really knew what I wanted to do, and I wish I had taken a summer and just done something completely off the wall like that.
shahrizai asked, "Did you feel awkward going from just a student to suddenly a father/father figure?"
For a bit, yes, but most of it went away by the time that I actually moved out there. I had spent a fair amount of time out here, and I became acclimated to the "Chris, can you read me a bedtime story?" stuff pretty early on. There are still times when I'm wondering what I'm doing out there - when julie throws up in the middle of the night and I have to clean it up, for example, I wonder how this became my job, but I expect that all parents wonder that.
All in all, I've felt very fatherly towards these kids for a long time, and it wasn't really a quick jump in. I took it in slowly, over a year while still at school, and by the time I came out to live here, I was just kind of used to it.
And I'll say that it's pretty damn cool.