I'm going out there. It's going to probably destroy my education for this semester, and I'll probably end up dropping out later this semester, but it doesn't matter. The only thing that's important at this point is being with her. She's not at the very end of her rope, but if I don't go out now, I might never see her again.
I'm not exagerating, but I am scared to death.
And someone just called me when I was going ot fix their computer. Thanks, I'll get to it. I'll just pile it onto the list of about 18 trillion things that I need to do before hoping to catch a plane or train tonight.
My parents are going to kill me, but I don't care. I need to see Jess, and I need to be there for her.
If you pray, please do. I've never really prayed so hard as I did this morning that she would be okay. Everything else in my life is on hold at the moment - she's the only thing that matters.
Just so anyone who doesn't know the situation knows: jess got mono in september. She hasn't gotten better. She gets tons of oppourtunisitc infections, and she hasn't succeeded in stomping it. She hasn't been able to eat in 8 days, and was getting symptoms of typical vitamin/mineral deficiencies: loose teeth, hair falling out, gums bleeding. She's in the hospital now on a morphine drip, in a lot of pain, but okay so far.