February 27th, 2003


mmm. too early/late.

Icon. New. Needed a post :( I was in a bad mood earlier, sleep helped, to which I'll be going back soon. I love sarah. She's awesome. On the note of Sarahs: Welcome musicbox1983Sarah to LiveJournal (a different one). Sarah is another Allen Hall local. As we found out on move-in day, our dad's work together.

Meg and Sergio are asleep, so i suppose i should go to sleep too. Just wanted to put in a nice welcome here.

G'night, world.
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Okay, so it's 3:13 AM, and I can't sleep at all. I have a million thoughts running through my head, a million different things I'm thinking about, a million different thoguhts running through my head.

I think I'm addicted to NPR. I keep wanting to turn it on. I now know that i can listen to it on the u of i campus radio station via the internet, and I have to keep stopping myself from turning it on.

I had a dream about Sarah (mentioned in previous post, not my girlfriend. Man, I need a new system for names.)

I was out sitting on the circle drive thing in front of Allen, and there were a bunch of us out there. It was warm, summer-time like, and I'm just sitting out there talking to people who were just kind of bumming around. And she walks up, coming up from gregory. It's a warm night out, and I'm wearing my button down black t-shirt. I've got my shirt kind of half unbuttoned, and it's like... 10ish at night. dark, at least. And she walks up lays down and leans against me. and put your hand on my chest.

Note that I didn't mention any dialouge. That's because there was none. A girl that I've hardly ever talked to outside of online, just walks up and puts her hand on my chest. And all the people in the group look at me kind of strange, and I just don't say anything. She gets up, and just walks away. No words were spoken. A person I never see just comes up and acts like we're dating, and I don't say a word.

Now don't get me wrong. Sarah is a great girl. But I love Sarah, not Sarah! (meh. I wonder how much sense this is going to make.) So, I was feeling very freaked out about the whole thing. It was... meh. I don't know. I don't like my dreams when they are saying things I don't understand at all. It's so very confusing. And then, if I ask for help interpretting them, I usually find out that the stuff I dream about indicates something I don't want to think about ;)

I also had a dream that Ang was im-ing me something, only it was like... IRC. because her name was in brackets (<asilvahalo> and so on) but... it was in her colors. But I don't know what it was about. I was away from the computer at the time, so I don't know what she was trying to ask me, but it was really important. And... once again, I have no idea what this stuff means. I just know that I like to know what my brain is thinking.

I emailed support@ today asking if I could get some kind of interims back. I have no idea what policy is on that kind of thing. I don't even know why I did it, except emma told me to, and then kristan exploded me when I didn't. So, I sent the damn email. there ya go.

Sarah made me feel way better tonight. She called and we talked for a little bit, and it just made me feel so much better. I really miss her, and it's going to be hard waiting another 3 weeks or whatever it is until I get to see her again. Stupid bad scheduling of Spring Break so I have to come home for a week, then come home again the next weekend.

I need to do my CS225 MP, and that's the rest of my real work for the week. I also need to study for my exam in that class and my exam in Math 225. I don't really want to do either. But that's part of life. The 225 MP is probably going to take me a long time, but I hope to get it done tomorrow, just because I want to have friday night to hang out. I haven't done anything fun since I went home for v-day. And I mean that literally. I haven't gone anywhere outside of the hall (except that engineering thing, which was kind of fun) since I got back. And that's been more than a week now.

I took my CS231 exam today. it went not too bad. There was nothing that I just totally didn't understand at all, which is nice. Didn't really know a set of equations for one of the things, but I still think I designed an okay circuit for it. Took me a second to remember what the hell XOR represents too ;) I really like that class: I feel like I'm learning a lot, and it's fun.

WHRW Binghamton is dead air at the moment. that's interesting. I wonder if their webcast broke again. (ah, no, it's just off the air at the moment.)

For those of you with a fast connection, the radio show that I was talking about yesterday morning is available at http://www.ews.uiuc.edu/~crschmid/2.26.03.mp3 . It's big (about 40-50 meg) and it's 2 hours long.

I just wanted to take a second and say some things that are sappy and annoying and none of you want to hear. So, if you hate romantics, skip this section. Sarah. I love you. I absolutely adore you. I love your voice. I love thinking of you, and this morning when I thought you were next to me, it was the best feeling in the world. When I opened my eyes, I realized that you weren't there, and it made me sad. But then I closed them again for a second, and I realized it didn't matter so much that you were there at the time as that I knew you would be someday. The email you sent me made me happy. The fact that you love me is something I know, but sometimes I feel like there's no reason for it. Now I know all the reasons ;) I love you, with all my heart, and I wish that we could be together. But, right now, we can't. it's going to be hard to be together for a while, but we can do it. We are the one, the proud: the ChriSarah ;) If you're ever feeling sad, just look at that piece of gold hanging around your neck. Look at it, and say to yourself "This belongs to my boyfriend, Christopher Robert Schmidt, and he loves me." Because it's true. If you're sad, think of that kiss in the car after we were at baker's square. Think of how nice it was. Think of when I walked in the door and gave you that cute litle bear. Think of prom. Think of our first kiss, think of our first date, watching moulin rouge on your couch. Think of "watching" serendipity, think of being in line for American eagle at great america and being told to get a room ;) Think of all the great things we've done together, and how much each one means. And know that I love you, no matter what.

Also, I'm seeing a lot of people are actually visiting my most recent entries page. I know the style on there sucks, so I'll work on getting something slightly more interesting up sometime next week, after my last two midterms. I had it set up the way it was so i could have an easy to load version for use at home while i was there. I'm also seeing a lot of people who are reading it that I don't know who you are: People from Tulane, to purdue, to Indiana University, to The College of London. Feel free to comment! Even if it's just to say "hi! I like your journal" or "What's up with how ugly you are", i'd love to hear you from.

Now, I'm going to try to go back to sleep. Hopefully this has gotten a little bit of the constantly running thoughts out of my head. If it hasn't, I may be back later to write more ;)

Peace out.
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This is one of the days I'm actually glad I got up for the 8:30 lecture.

Today we learned magnetism. Besides the fact that I learn a lot better going to the 8:30 lecture (the professor is SO much better), something funny actually happened.

One of the great things about magnetism is all the cool things you can do with it. You can see all kinds of different tricks that seem like "magic", but as our prof said "We do not live in a world guarded over by demons." There is no "magic" in our everyday lives, all is explainable. As a part of proving this, during lecture we saw tons of examples of how magnetism works. When explaining how cobalt magnets are strong, he was going to show how loud of a noise they smack together. He placed one inside a glass cube-type thing, to show that even through glass, the magnetic field would make enough of an effect to make a large clank noise.

Well, it worked, a bit too well. as soon as he set down the magnet, the two smacked together (from approx 6 inches apart) and broke right through the glass.

"Well, I'm only teaching one lecture today," he responded with a smirk.

This guy is great. He's energetic, he's bright, and he stays on schedule. He gets through the lecture, and he does a good job with it. He actually likes physics, he enjoys teaching it, and he's good at it.

Why why why can't he teach the 10 o clock lecture, so i don't have to get out of bed so damn early?

Sergio and meg looked really cute when I woke up this morning. They were laying on the bed next to each other, and it was just... sweet looking. I wonder if that's how I look when I'm curled up with Sarah.

I must admit, I admire his restraint. The two of them still claim they aren't going out, but even when Sarah and I weren't going out, we were more touchy-feely than they are during daylight (or, ya know, awake time) hours. (And look who jsut walked in... oh no, he's gone again). Within two weeks of our first semi-dating type thing, we were going out. They've been doing this for how long now? It seems like it's been a long time, I'm pretty sure it was pre-valentines day. And they're sleeping in the same bed, but they still claim they're not dating ;)

I'm thinking of actually making some detailed friends groups. People who want to hear about my daily life, my random ramblings, and different things like that. If you are tired of hearing about a certain subject from me, feel free to comment and say "I'm tired of all your crap about xxxx! I want to hear more about your random sexual escapades!" or, you can comment and say "Hey, that year in review you were writing? When's that gonna be out, 2004?"

For now, I'm going to try to do some work on the 225 MP, right after I take a shower. I smell, badly.

Oh, sidenote. Bazaar session should end today, so I made a nice post with all my reviewed patches (as well as the two bugfixes I wrote, tested, and got commited). I now have three contribs in the database: Bug 633, Bug 663, and code reviews. Who knows? maybe I'll even get something out of it. Although to be honest, I doubt it. The stuff I've done is fairly small compared to a lot of other things.

Oh, and for those of you who don't like my friends page spamming, feel free to skip this stuff. Mostly, I've just got a lot of random thoughts running through my head, and so I'm posting a lot. I don't know why that is lately, but it's one of those things that happens every now and then. If you'd like, feel free to drop me from your friends list, I can guarentee you I won't take offense. I know how hard it is to keep up with friends pages (mine is no exception, trust me ;)) so feel free to do whatever you have to do.

And finally, a moment of silence. For the man that I watched religiously for years, for "It's a beautiful day in the neighborhood, a beautiful day for a neighbor"... A moment of silence, for Mr. Rogers, who died last night at age 74. May he be as happy and friendly as he always was on TV.
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