Down to only 10 days. 10 days of life here at home before I'm gone for 5 weeks.
I've been away from home before. Lots of times. I was even gone for 13 days once. But nothing like this. Nothing where I was actually LIVING on my own. Only camping trips, backpacking, summer camp... all those things boy scouts teaches you.
I've also been camping with my family for 2 weeks, maybe even a little more. But that's different - I was with family at that point. I don't know how I'm going to take this.
I don't think I'll be homesick though. I used to get homesick, but I've gotten over that, for the most part. Also, it's not like I'll be bored - I have a computer with a super-fast internet connection. ;)
There's a million reasons I'm not ready to go to school. I just wish... I wish it could be easier than this.
Oh well. I'll just have to see how it works out.
As sad as i am to leave...
I'm ready to leave.
I just wish the time to leave would get here. I don't want to go, but if I have to, why can't it just be now? Why can't i just leave and get away from controlling parents, crappy family, annoying people, etc. etc. etc. Get away from the drama of real life, move on to school. I'm tired. I'm too tired for this to work anymore.
I kind of like rain.
It's been really dry here this summer, and we haven't had much precipitation at all. But today and last night, it's been POURING. It's kind of cool... I miss big thunderstorms.
When I was going in to 8th grade, I went to summer camp at Camp Freeland Leslie, with the boy scouts. It was the council park, and so, during the middle of the week, there were OA elections. It was supposed to be a ceremony outside.
Well, on the night of the thing, it poured. POURED. HUGE thunderstorm. So we all crowded into this one little lodge, and it sucked.
But then! The high point of the week. We got to walk back to camp. It was still pouring... It rained 6 inches in 2 hours right around that time. We were hopping over puddles, running through the rain, and watching the HUGE thunderstorm going on all around us. It was te most fun I had all that week - i felt so excited to be out in this huge storm.
To this day, i remember running down the river that the path became, thinking that was amazing fun.
And the storms today have reminded me of this.
In other news...
Got a new pair of glasses today. Well, really 2 new pairs. They're much smaller, one is gold and one is black. Got them from pearlevision. I'm kind of excited - i haven't gotten a new pair in a year and a half. I should have them before I leave for school.
I dont' know when I'll be packing up my computer - hopefully the night before I leave. I hate leaving it behind :)
Hope to go out with carolyn tonight after her family dinner, maybe to starbucks. Just sit for a while, like i've been doing with erin lately. Erin was online earlier today, but I missed her while i was getting glasses. It took 2 hours. Oh, did i mention my eyes are twice as bad now as they used to be? No wonder I can never read street signs! ;)
Doctor told me all about his college life - how big of a deal spring break was the first time, blah blah blah. It was kind of fun.
That's it for now.
Note to self - write guide to buying movie theater tickets
Write guide to buying groceries at a grocery store (from a baggers view)
What's so bad about me? why is it that no matter how hard I try, I can never find a good job? I just want to make some money.
I did have a good job at the beginning of the summer. I was working at the geneva chamber of commerce, and it was great. 10 bucks an hour, set my own hours, no taxes/union dues/other crap... Easy work.
Now I'm working at jewel. Hard as hell job, only 18 hours a week, pays jack crap (6.40 an hour minus taxes and union dues)... I made less in 2 months at jewel than i did in 3 weeks at geneva.
And now, sarah's getting a job at the library. What have I done wrong with my life? Why am i so horrible I can't be hired as an employee anywhere worth working? Why do i take the shit jobs?
I hate this.