October 24th, 2001


but i have friends now!! 10/24/2001

Thank you, to all you who noticed how down i was today. there's no real reason (no girlfriend to dump me, no big stuff going on)... just didn't feel like a good day, ya know? but there's a bunch of you who tried to make me feel better - and when people try to make me feel better, it DOES make me feel better. I want to say thanks to all you who said kind words today - especially kara and autumn. ya'll are great people, i love being around you guys (meaning girls). i still hate school, and it sucks that i literally can NOT do my homework! i try hard, and i fail miserably. damn senioritis. I sit down to do homework, and i get distracted. i can't do homework without dialing up and being on aim - but even when no one's on, i can't do homework with aim on!!! grrr. well, as soon as i turn in my u of i application, everything will be good - i can slack off for a couple weeks :-) right now i'm gonna see if i can get some work done - doubtful, but i'm gonna try anyway. later!

School? Why bother? 10/24/2001

can anyone explain to me why i go to school? i end up getting the same grades whether i go or not, whether i study or not, whether i practice or not. Why don't i just start working full time to save up for school? Or, why don't i just quit work and hang out with people after school rather than spending all my time at a job i hate? the answer is - i'm a wuss. i don't like confrontation. and both of those would involve more confrontation than i'm willing to own up to. ok, it's bed time